Maximum Bully Dog Food

hey guys this week's video is a serious video, it's something that's very meaningful to me if you feel bored then you just can skip this video, and i'll have something more fun next week

Maximum Bully Dog Food, but i do hope that you stick around for a least a bit of my message everyone has their own struggles in life and maybe some of you are going through the same thing i was and we're together on this i hope that by talking about it, you won't feel so alone

and maybe i can help you a bit. so i am gonna draw it out and talk to you about this because i love drawing and it's a good release of emotion for me are you still there? okay, let's start bullying is something that is very close to my heart i experienced it first when i was a child you will notice i only ever share photos from when i was a baby up till about... six years old that's because after that i had a tough time

when i was about seven to twelve years old i became overweight and i got made fun of very often okay [sigh] i'm going to show you this was me i often wore baggy sweaters to hide my body kids called me names and made feel even worse about myself than i already did i would often go home from school crying to my parents did the other kids think i didn't know that i was fat? *deep breath* i didn't need to be told it

it made me so sad *deep sigh* but, i had my dolls and i had art i always dreamed of becoming a model or a singer but that seems so far away i was chubby and my voice sucked well i changed one of those things i still have no confidence in singing... but i went to the gym, i ate healthier and i lost weight now i didn't become anorexic, or do any extreme dieting at all as some of you may be thinking

i just ate healthier with portion control. i didn't binge eat junk food at night as i usually did, and i worked out regularly it took me time. it was about six months to lose it, but i made a lifestyle choice a change in diet, in my mind, and exercise that stuck with me until this day keeping me feeling good and my metabolism fast i won't go into details on how i did it maybe i'll write a blog later if you want if you do want know my diet and how i lost a lot of weight healthfully, leave me a comment below so i know okay moving on. after i lost weight, i got my grandma to take me to take me to modeling agencies and after a few no's because i was too short. one finally said yes! it's important to have people who encourage and support you

my grandmother always encouraged me to dream big and be creative my family has always been there for me to take me to every art, dance, modeling lesson and helped me when i needed it, and picked me up when i was down besides your family, friends are also great it's important to have friends and be that great friend back in fact just be kind and friendly to everyone not just the people you choose to hang out with i guess what i'm trying say is to surround yourself with positive people that inspire you instead of negativity. and also be that person yourself anyways i shocked myself and got into a modeling agency!

from there more self issues came... i was judged daily almost solely on my physical appearance, and compared to other girls if i didn't book a job i would often wonder why, or what part wasn't good enough about me? rosie!!! sorry she was barking i often wondered what i should change. the truth was there's nothing i could change... it's just some jobs weren't right for me and they weren't looking for my look then i started getting overseas contracts this put competition to a whole new level

i was constantly put with models that castings stuck in model agency vans or living in a house full of models i witnessed many things, good and bad good being i found some of my best friends bad being drugs, eating disorders, hate, jealousy i've seen girls trying to survive by only drinking water and eating sugar-free mints i even heard about one girl's portfolio being destroyed by nail polish remover being poured on it by another jealous model a portfolio is something that a model works so hard from months and years to build it determines whether you work or not this was all destroyed in 30 seconds, but did that make that jealous model a better model?

did she get any more jobs? no! she could've put her time and energy on making herself better of course i'm guilty i've also been jealous before. i'm surrounded by beautiful girls all the time i see them in magazines, and on auditions around me everywhere instead of turning to hate i just let it inspire me and i think i want to be like that one day! and then i just work harder but then again maybe i can never be like that because my body was made different and that's okay too i learnt to accept that

the next chapter of my life has turned me from a model to kind of an online personality a blogger, a youtuber, a model i guess? i don't really know what my title is... but from this i got you guys! you're my youtube and online family! i love making videos and photos for you and reading your comments i also love seeing your photos and anything that i inspired you on. even just a little bit i want to thank you for giving me a place to be you have given me an outlet to share my life with you and you have given me so much love, encouragement, and support it means the world to me thank you. really

but, the internet can also be bad place with this comes even more hate and criticism everyday i'm constantly judged everything i do, say, and every picture i post is analyzed i guess this is expected when you're in the public eye not everyone will like you everyone has their own opinions and that's okay, but if i listen to every comment people say to me i would look something like this it's impossible to listen to everyone

all i can do is what i love and what makes me happy and everyone should do that. we shouldn't judge or criticize people for doing that they have one life to live, let them live it worry about your own, not someone elses another thing is women fighting women i know this happens with men too. but i see it so much more with women it's probably because i am a girl. i don't know, the hormones, jealousy... emotions, it's just so much stronger we have enough to worry about as girls and women so we should unite to support, inspire and love each other

instead of bringing each other down other women are not my competition. i stand with them not against them if i learnt one thing is to do what makes me happy life is too short. if you live this way you won't have regrets and try not to worry what other people think or say about you as hard as it is, just know their negativity won't get them or you anywhere. it will just bring you down and distract you from your goals you can do anything you want as long as you put your heart and mind into it

believe in yourself. for those being bullied remember, you are amazing and it will get better be strong and hold on. i'm not saying you need to lose weight to be happy this is just something i felt that i wanted to do it's okay to just be who you are and embrace it. physical thing only takes you so far in life a great soul and personality is far better do what you want to do with the one life you have. love yourself because there is only one you in the world and you are special and for those of you doing the bullying

think more before you speak. does the other person really need to hear your opinion? do you know what's going on in their lives that makes them live in a certain way? probably not. everyone is going through things in their lives that you have no idea about if it's something physical like weight, maybe a big nose, small boobs i always got made fun of for that do you think that they don't know that already? it's hard enough to just love yourself and accept who you are and what you have on your own

it becomes even harder when someone else's telling you how bad you have it and why is it necessarily a bad thing? what you think is beautiful or not is different from what someone else thinks. and if we all look the same that would be boring. if you are the bully, also ask yourself, why are you doing this? is there something that you don't like about yourself? is there something that the other person has that you want? focus on yourself and reaching your goals instead of focusing on other people. it's hard to always be positive i can't do it either. but just try your best to think before you speak

and try to be kind. okay i got this on my thoughts. so what now? what's next for me? i don't know. but i'm going to keep doing what i want to do i'm going to learn japanese fluently. i'm going to wear my makeup and hair the way i want to i'm going to dress the way i like. i'm going to make more dance videos because i like to dance i'm human, i have flaws, i have things i don't like about myself i have doubts, i have issues and i know. but the one thing that i do know is i love life. and i'm going to live the happiest life i can. i hope you do too

i hope you can do what makes you happy. and block out the negative people that try to stop you or telling you you can't. because what i really want to tell you in this video

is that you can do anything you want to do if you work hard enough and believe in yourself. i wish you luck, health, happiness and success and remember, i'll always be here see you in my next video